This past week has been an interesting and emotional one. Now in reality not much has happened but I’ve changed lots.
Over the last few months, I have procrastinated like a boss, over many different things from cleaning to dieting but not actually made any changes.
Until this week.
Why now, I hear you cry? This is where you will all laugh but on Tuesday 5th June, after going back to Lancaster, I decided to get another piercing (sorry to my parents!) we headed over to my parents house to have dinner and watch the Greatest Showman( finally!) I was inspired.
The film lead me to have a sleepless night trying to figure out what I wanted to do with my life, to figure out what my goals were and what I wanted. After much soul searching- I decided that I wanted to lose weight and follow a much healthier lifestyle.
On Wednesday 5th June, I sat down to write one of the hardest posts of my life as cliched as that sounds. After months of this blogging malarkey, I decided to be open and honest and write a post about my battle with my weight. It took about two hours to write it on paper, before editing it and then i started to write it on the computer. Trying to find the right words.
I started typing and ‘Let It Go’ from Frozen played on my phone, and that’s what I have chosen to do. I’m letting go of my weight, and my food anxiety. When I had finished, I sent it to my mother to read and she shared it on her Facebook page and she then encouraged me to share it in our family what’sapp groups which I did after much deliberation. A few hours later, my loving husband shared on his Facebook page which made me pause for thought and a few minutes after I made my move after months of secrecy.
I shared it on Facebook. I know right?! Brave! 😂
Within in minutes, many friends had read the blog and were leaving lovely and supportive comments on the Facebook post. My anxiety over posting something so personal on my Facebook page had faded.
A little while later, I checked my phone and watched in shock as comment after comment came flooding in. I was bowled over by the support and love that i received. That night people in their hundreds from all over the world had read my blog post and the messages were still coming.
I’ll admit that the next few days back at work were not as exciting as the previous days last week but it made my day watching the statistics on that post rise.
If you left a comment on that blog post thank you so so much. It means the world to me.
This week I have been determined and I still am determined and my time is now.